Tuesday, January 03, 2012
This is my first blog in the New Year, and I'd like to write something meaningful and inspirational, but I'm finding myself to be somewhat at a loss for words. I'm sort of temporarily tapped out. Since early November, I've been running around like a chicken with my head cut off getting ready for this and that, and now that the excitement of all the holidays is over, the company has left, and my son goes back to school tomorrow, there is a satisfying lull in my routine. I have nothing urgent on my calendar until February. And I'm liking this peaceful time of nothing pressing to do.
Like most people, however, I am thinking about what I'd like to accomplish this year. My to-do list is always a mile long, but there are a few must-do priorities at the top. I'm not a "resolutions" type of person, I'm a goals and priorities gal, and one of the top goals is to continue to make my health a priority. As many moms know, we often put ourselves second or third to our children, our husbands, our jobs, and our pets. I made a conscious decision in 2010 to make myself a priority and started working out with a trainer and seeing a nutritionist. Thankfully, my husband is supportive and my son, who is the most health conscious seven-year-old I know, rarely wants to eat anything fattening or sugary, so I get a lot of support in my household.
Another big priority is to continue to focus on the next phase in my career, which I voluntarily stepped away from when my son was born. While he's been growing, I've enjoyed freelancing at my own pace, providing me with the flexibility to be a full-time mom. Now that my son is becoming more and more independent, the economy is picking up, and I am seeing more opportunities, I am reviewing my options. Many of the stay-at-home moms I met last year when my son entered Kindergarten have gone back to work; some out of necessity, and others because they missed being in the workforce. I am torn. I miss being in the workforce. But I know I'll miss being a full-time mom. And I'm scared at the prospect of relinquishing control to a nanny. I'll just have to cross that bridge when I come to it.
One of the biggest challenges I expect to face this year is taking on guardianship of my younger sister who has down's syndrome and currently lives in a group home near my parents in Maine. My parents are now in their early 70s, and it's getting harder for them to supervise her care. It's time for me to step into a role I have been anticipating for many years. I'll be overseeing her transition to a group home in Connecticut, and becoming her full-time guardian ensuring all her needs are met. Fortunately, she is high functioning, relatively independent, and social, so I'm hopeful she will be happy making new friends and getting involved in new activities.
I'm looking forward to 2012 being a year of positive change for me and my family. And even though I say every year that I'm going to slow down, not take on so many projects, and try not to do too much, I know that I will. It's in my nature. If I'm not running around with my hair on fire, I'm bored.
So here's to the New Year! As my son likes to say, "Go like the wind Bulls Eye."